I Keep Hammering But I Never Get Nailed

Enjoy Life's Simple Pleasures

2010-12-25T00:19:00.000-08:00

Check me out for some giggles

"Owlish" Thoughts

2010-11-19T22:05:00.000-08:00

Owls are awesome.

Urban Cowgirl Deux

2010-09-22T21:06:00.000-07:00

I totally want this horsey bike.And yes, I know this fulfills my childhood fantasy of getting a pony.

Read the Fine Print

2010-09-22T20:52:00.000-07:00

Or at least your clothing tags.

J'veux ton amour

2010-09-10T21:18:00.000-07:00

How cool is this?!?!

2010-08-18T16:13:00.000-07:00

While looking through some Chihuly images, I discovered that the illustrious artist wears an eyepatch. Arrr...he be the glass pirate!

In the Wee Hours

2010-07-21T03:29:00.000-07:00

I weep for the strangest things in the dark. I weep for a loss that will never come. I weep because I place myself beside others--real or imaginary--and exist inside their pain. I weep because I can. I weep because I am afraid that all my plans, all my ambition, talent, and effort will let me down and I'll end up a failure.

Amen!

2010-06-28T19:15:00.000-07:00

But enough about me...Read a funny/disturbing article on twilight addiction. Obsess much, hmm?In light of this, I've decided reality is more ridiculous than ever.

A Little Irony & A Little Hope, Part II

2010-06-27T21:41:00.000-07:00

You along with every other sane individual on the planet. (Bella Swan not included)"When I'm alone, I wear my ring on my left finger and pretend we're already married."I bought a bling-ed out fake wedding ring that I like to take out and pretend like someone wants to marry me.

For My Love-Dove, Anna

2010-06-13T21:25:00.001-07:00

Blurg

2010-05-21T19:35:00.001-07:00

The other day my mum all-out threatened to make me move out ("Get a job or get out!")I can't say that I blame her. It must be hard to have a 23-year old who never leaves the house and does nothing but sleep and wander the internet.I cried. I suppose it doesn't help that THAT time has come up and my emotions flop between depressed, uber depressed and pissed. I hate PMS. I guess this means yet

A Little Irony & A Little Hope

2010-04-06T20:54:00.000-07:00

Perhaps the only thing that matters is doing what makes you happy.Pay it forward

A Return to the Age of Dickens...

2010-03-31T21:52:00.000-07:00

Open your imagination wide and enjoy shamelessly...*giggle giggle*

A Little Self-Help (I guess)

2010-03-31T18:40:00.000-07:00

I will not be annoyed with the people around me.I will not be annoyed with the people around me.I will not be annoyed with the people around me. Which is pretty much my parents these days since I rarely leave the house and don't socialize beyond what the internet provides.I will be patient when my mum decides to be overly helpful.I will be patient when my mum decides to be overly helpful.I will

I definitely have a 'Type'

2010-03-28T02:22:00.000-07:00

Adam Young (Owl City) and Stephen Christian (Anberlin, Anchor & Braille) could be brothers. Seriously.They even write song lyrics with a similar feel. Wow.

Let's Get Violent!

2009-12-04T20:14:00.000-08:00

I will crush all resistance.

Guide to Hunting and Trapping An RPatz

2009-06-23T21:54:00.000-07:00

HOW TO TRAP AN RPATZ:HOW TO RECOGNIZE AN RPATZ IN THE WILD:In order to capture an RPatz, you will need the appropriate bait. Consider using the following:CupcakesFilm scripts better than those for Twilight (shouldn't be hard to find)marijuana (only where legal)a sign that says "No Twilight Fans Allowed."'Place your bait of choice under a box which has been propped up with a stick with a string

Uh...

2009-06-01T23:22:00.000-07:00

Now for a limited time at Hot Topic...To further the tweenage obsession...Edward Cullen Body ShimmerFor 'skin made of a million diamond facets'Obsess much, kids?

The South Shall Rise Again! (kinda)

2009-05-28T18:25:00.000-07:00

I am a rare individual...

2009-05-13T15:50:00.000-07:00

...If you didn't guess that already.I took the Myers Briggs Personality test. Just for the heck of it: INFJ - "Author". Strong drive and enjoyment to help others. Complex personality. 1.5% of total population. Take Free Myers-Briggs Personality TestWhat this says about me

Wisdom of the Ages

2009-05-09T20:19:00.000-07:00

Writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia. -E.L. DoctorowSit back, cats and kittens, and think it over.

Silly Thought

2009-05-07T18:06:00.001-07:00

In Ireland, unless you're giving birth it is impolite to refuse a pint when one is offered... Even then you should probably still take a few sips.These things just randomly pop into my head. All the time. Usually when laughing to oneself would be most untimely and embarrassing.

I am Jackson Pollock

2009-04-26T17:28:00.000-07:00

No two are the same. Try it out.

Creepy Surprise and a New Interest

2009-04-11T01:12:00.000-07:00

I watched an episode of Criminal Minds featuring Jackson Rathbone as the villian. DAMN! He can really pull out the creepy when he needs to!Even though I don't want to spoil things, I do have to admit that he makes one hot lady...*jaw drops momentarily*Besides this, I actually discovered the show's regular characters intriguing. Lucky for me I found a site with all the current episodes posted so I

Me & My Shadow

2009-03-06T22:16:00.000-08:00

Yup, Yup

2009-02-28T23:13:00.000-08:00

I laugh at the dumbest thingsHappy Birthday to Me!

Ahh..yes! "Modern Medicine

2009-02-21T15:06:00.000-08:00

This is pretty much how I always feel about doctors.

Guess what Target is selling now?

2009-02-21T14:58:00.000-08:00

Freudian Slippers, anyone?

Let's be frank

2009-02-20T21:21:00.000-08:00

...but I'd still like to be Leighta.

Insult to Injury

2009-01-25T17:46:00.000-08:00

"I don't sit on my butt like two other people in this family"Thanks, mum. Way to help my depression.

Childhood Fear Confession

2009-01-22T15:34:00.000-08:00

Ever since childhood, I've had an rather strange love-hate relationship with robots.When I was little there was this HUGE or so it seemed at the time robot that was the mascot of the city recycling program. It creeped me out and naturally I cried, screamed and did every childish thing to get the fuck out of there.These days...WALL-E is a little cutie pie. I can't imagine anyone not loving himI'm

Hang your head in shame, world!

2009-01-18T01:23:00.000-08:00

I saw this posted on Cute With Chris. It really hit home. Probably my biggest dislike about modern politics is the way no one seems to make an effort to understand or be tolerant of differences. In policy, obviously, differences are embraced; in reality...not so much.I am reminded of a song...What's so funny 'bout peace, love and understanding?Seriously. If a dog and an elephant can do, why not

Merry Christmas, Economy!

2008-12-23T21:00:00.000-08:00

Yep, Gonzaga sent out 'official' letters to everyone assuring them that plenty of scholarship money will be available for next semester... Yay!

Breaking Dawn Humor

2008-12-01T23:09:00.000-08:00

I've spent the past few weeks listening (and re-listening) to the 'Twilight' series on iTunes. I finally reached the honeymoon part of the final book. Tee he he...I haven't quite reached the half-way point, but all I have to say is Bella is a freakin' moron!Just for a laugh:

Totally Predictable

2008-11-26T20:03:00.000-08:00

Wow, who would have guessed that?So for the past month or so the new 'popular' obsession has been Twilight. FYI: I have totally been a Robert Pattinson fan since Goblet of Fire, unlike everyone else. HA! I've always been ahead of my time... Anyways, now that I'm currently half-way through the third of the four book series, I realized a few things:My attachment to fictional story lines is quite

On the Town

2008-11-04T22:53:00.000-08:00

Anna managed to get me out of my house for Halloween. We went to Dempsey's and (sadly) after only one drink (a large one though) we both were mildly drunk. It was a pretty fun night. Anna's little sis and her boyfriend (Trevor? Travis?) gave us a ride home, during which I was almost embarrassingly drunk and told Trev/Trav many, many irrelevant things about myself. I've obviously lost my

So few words

2008-10-31T19:53:00.000-07:00

Except for maybe delicious. Adorkable. Schmexy.I should check eBay for a Texan Adonis

Things like this make me miss drum corps

2008-10-09T00:18:00.000-07:00

The mellophone section of the Michigan Marching Band makes me laugh. And then I get a little sad with the memories of baritone section escapades...

Make My Day!

2008-10-02T20:59:00.000-07:00

No, not in the 'Dirty Harry' way.After my meltdown early this morning, I got a little surprise...Anna loves me!!But this really shouldn't come as a surprise to me, Anna has always been there for. And she always will. I call and she comes.Thanks for being there, Anna My Lover!

This is what happens...

2008-10-02T04:09:00.000-07:00

...when it all stays within my mind. I end up losing it at 4 am listening to Anberlin's new album ('Blame Me! Blame Me' on New Surrender).

WHAT?!?!?!

2008-09-27T20:48:00.000-07:00

I am confused. But that's not really new for me...

SUPER-PUP!

2008-09-26T22:39:00.000-07:00

Scenes From My Twisted Mind (Act I)

2008-09-24T20:55:00.000-07:00

If Jensen Ackles were any better looking I'd have to seal him in a Plexiglas case for safekeeping.Oh God! I think I've just cum!Hello, my Texan Adonis!

Cory Has A Drinking Problem

2008-09-21T03:02:00.000-07:00

This guy and his cat, Sparta, make me laugh. Nothing better than random, senseless comedy, right?Check out his YouTube videos here......and Sparta (aka The Mean Kitty) here.

Laugh it out

2008-09-20T02:02:00.000-07:00

Let's be irrationally wrapped up in material oblivion for a few moments...

Twin-cestuous-ness

2008-09-18T00:26:00.000-07:00

Is that even a word? No waySay hello to the 14-15 year old emo boy who looks surprisingly similar to me.Awkward, right? There are too few words...

'Ham' it up, dear!

2008-08-24T15:56:00.000-07:00

I seriously need to read Hamlet; I've been meaning to since Warren the Ape performed the monologue (after Claudius' death) for an audition with Gary Oldman on "Greg the Bunny. A strange insight into classic Elizabethan literature, I know, but anything with puppets is far more interesting.I could be bounded in a nutshell—and count myself a king of infinite space—were it not that I have bad dreams.

A Little 1-on-1 With Mr. Ripley

2008-08-12T00:08:00.001-07:00

Comfort Through Anonymous Solidarity

2008-08-10T20:07:00.000-07:00

Weird moment today: I went outside to separate the recyclables and saw the neighbor's female black lab on the porch humping a blanket. I honestly had no idea that a female dog would go around and hump something - seems more like a male thing, you know - but I guess anythings possible.Anywho... Ever think about the irony of the ever-popular internet social networks? MySpace, Buzznet,

Sweet but sadly rare

2008-04-14T02:43:00.000-07:00

Just finished watching the latest episode of Eli Stone on iTunes (Waiting For That Day) and I found it gave me a little bit of hope for myself. Like perhaps my high school friend was right when she said I wasn't as crazy as everyone thought, just saner than everyone else.When someone says, "Tell me about yourself" in an interview or upon a first encounter, I never know what to say. I usually say

MySpace Post Numero Dos

2008-03-26T23:25:00.000-07:00

Here I go again: "Let's stream all that unconsciousness!"I'm just killing some time before an appointment...Hey everyone/no one!It started snowing really hard just when I needed to walk to the bus stop. So I am now slightly moist and my bangs look extremely odd. Apparently snow reactivates hair gel and turns it into cement.Yesterday morning some very strong men started to reshingle the roof on my

Poor, funny, molested boy

2008-03-24T22:32:00.001-07:00

I am officially the worst person in the world right now

2008-03-16T18:45:00.000-07:00

I just intentionally hurt my mum.She's so sensitive, kind and lonely. A lot like me, only without all the inner malice and deception.She cares so much for everyone else and often neglects herself......and all I could do was hurt her.

Excuse me while I fall apart

2008-03-16T13:04:00.000-07:00

Last Wednesday I saw my general (family) doctor, and on Thursday I saw my rheumatologist. Both independently agree that I am (and I quote from their exact words) "a chemically difficult person." OMG! You think? Now it seems I must be shipped off to the gynecologist (a man, most likely, because women gynecologists are a dying breed) to determine just how screwed up I am hormonally and if I am

MySpace Post

2008-01-15T01:10:00.000-08:00

As a part of a deal I made with myself to reach out more, here lies one of my first random bulletins for everyone/no one to see.To the nobody who cares,Okay, so I have been doing oodles of surveys lately instead of actually writing something...I've felt like crap lately. Since I had my tonsils out last week I haven't been able to take my antidepressants/antianxiety pills. I admit it, I've been

Let's have a rant-tastic time

2007-12-01T16:51:00.000-08:00

Today's subject: Who I hate(And when I say 'hate' I mean hate versus abhor, abominate, loathe, detest and despise)I hate:-my father for being lazy, selfish, impatient and (in general) a completely nosy bastard-my sister for being the most self-obsessed person in the world who think she is better than everyone else. Also for alienating everyone in my family to the point where they hate her,

Don't let me get me

2007-11-12T22:20:00.000-08:00

I'm my own worst enemy Once more November has rolled around I feel beyond exhausted; time is never enough, the sun sets too fast, sleep does not restore or refresh.I'm falling behind in my schoolwork and it seems as if I'll never catch up again. Miss a class here and there - the van wouldn't start, appointment with a rheumatologist I've been waiting seven months for - and I somehow missed it all.

Standing Still: Irony of All Ironies

2007-10-31T15:40:00.000-07:00

This is my life, good to the last drop...Today in my Western Civilization class, I was lectured on the formation of towns and the weakening of the feudal system in Europe. Total deja vu!I opened my old Michigan folder on my computer...(much to my regret)EXACTLY one year ago, in my Medieval Europe class I was taking note on this SAME EXACT TOPIC!HOLY SHIT! I'm am literally EXACTLY where I was last

I want shoes... and B-Den

2007-09-24T00:19:00.001-07:00

And my favorite TV show is...

2007-09-19T02:11:00.000-07:00

Gabe Saporta and Ryan Ross...Perfection!

Like Jared Leto said "this is the story of my life"

2007-07-26T16:45:00.000-07:00

I know, it's been a while since I've blogged...Yesterday I was thinking about my search for a adequate counselor/psychiatrist and how much time has been wasted going over the same things with people who claim a different approach but really do the same things everyone else in their field does. It is ironic and completely lame. I have filled out worksheet after worksheet asking about my family

Here I am once more...

2007-06-17T01:25:00.000-07:00

... in the wee hours of the morn at a new emotional low.In less than 10 hours my mum and dad are leaving once more for Seattle so he can receive his stem cell transplant. Whenever the subject of leaving comes up, my mum's eyes tear up and she says in an unconvincingly brave voice that she "won't cry." I finally asked her what exactly she was so worried about; Seattle is only on the other side of

Session With Dr. P (Take I)

2007-06-02T22:44:00.000-07:00

How did my session with a new psychiatrist go? Interesting...This particular doctor--from here on to be known as "Dr. Prattle"--is thorough. Very thorough. Dr. Prattle is the type who analyzes every word coming out of a patients mouth. After extensive exploration into my past/present/future, my awkward ability to survey a room and maintain eye contact simultaneously, and (of course) choice of

For The Concerned Masses......or maybe just for the three or four people actually reading this blog.

2007-05-24T23:06:00.000-07:00

Here is an update on my status since my...uh, foray into self-harm.I am fine. Really. All of this will be sorted out very soon. I see a new psychiatrist on Wednesday and he'll find me proper treatment.As for my arm...

Moment of Truth

2007-05-24T22:47:00.000-07:00

Even though it happened six months ago, I still think about it and felt like sharing.My sister, Faith, and I have never really had a "great" relationship. Once she hit junior high we went our separate ways. Even now our relationship wouldn't fall under any usual category of sibling relations. We have a lot in common--more than either of us realize at times, I believe--but we are still almost

God, The Devil...and Bob

2007-05-21T03:40:00.000-07:00

Okay, so there really is no "bob" in this scenario. I just wanted the title to sound like that short-lived cartoon from back in the day (which was a Wednesday. Ask Dane Cook).So I have been struggling with an urge to cut myself, but my sense of reason (and a little bit of fear) has allowed me to win the struggle.Tonight, as I was watching South Park on my computer something totally random just

The Supernatural

2007-05-18T00:45:00.000-07:00

Even though my mum thinks the CW television show "Supernatural" is sheer evil, I have watched it and am now addicted. She doesn't know this of course. Granted, the show is about evil spirits, ghosts, demons, etc. but at the core is the struggle of two brothers against the natural (and unnatural) world.Since my sister and even my friends really aren't all that close to me, I needed to find a

Am I really crazy?

2007-05-17T00:15:00.000-07:00

I've basically accepted the fact that I'm different from most everyone else. My mind rarely settles in one place for long, I am a thinker, an observer, a dreamer. I suppose I could say that I believe a person is only limited by their imagination. I imagine the practical and the impractical on equal terms.My high school friend Kelsey once said I am probably the most sane person on earth and it is

The Backstory

2007-04-21T11:40:00.000-07:00

I basically have to get all this crap out there just so certain things in future post will (hopefully) make more sense.On Halloween last year I was officially diagnosed with severe depression (most likely bipolar disorder), social anxiety disorder and OCD. I'm a mess, I know. This was a major contributing factor in my decision to withdraw from the University of Michigan and move back

My New Motivator

2007-04-20T16:34:00.000-07:00

What has happened to me? In most ways I am still the same person I was a year ago, but now my actions in public are somehow even more self-conscious than before and my actions in private and around family are tinged with apathy, regret and bitterness.I made two major choices regarding my future and they blew up in my face; neither Pacific University nor the University of Michigan was compatible